It's been a hard day again, and all you want to do is call up that one friend. The one you knew you could always turn to. The one who always picked you up when you were down. The one who you always laughed with, cried with, and lit the town on fire with. Your best friend. Your soul mate. Sometimes you didn't have to call...when you picked up your phone, there would be a text asking if you were "O.K." That friend always knew when something wasn't right. Somehow, when your world was crumbling down on all sides, he was always there to save you from the wreckage. No one ever understood your friendship. In fact, so many people made it out to be something it wasn't. The way you were so in sync, the way you acted, the way you fought, it all seemed as if your friendship was more of a relationship than anything else. But in a way it was. He was always more than a friend. He was connected to you. On a level no one else would ever understand. You were always safe with him and he was safe with you. There wasn't any bullshit, no drama, just the reality of this life and the curve balls it loves to throw, and you had each other to lean on when it did. It was good.
As all good things do, things changed. Time passed, things between you two changed. The connection was always there but life took you down separate paths. Before you knew it, years had gone by and not a single word was spoken between you two. He left for the life he always dreamed of having. You stayed for the life you always imagined you would have. There may have been a void in your hearts somewhere along the way but neither of you would ever admit to it. Too stubborn.
You had a chance to say good bye and you didn't. You don't regret it though. You know you couldn't. There was a time when he told you things would never change, yet they would never be the same. Even though it shattered your heart to hear, you knew he was right. You held on to each other through the times you needed to, got each other through the parts of life that you were meant to, then you went on with your own lives as it was always intended.
But what about now? When times get tough again, times maybe only he would understand? Or maybe a once familiar song plays on his radio and you flash through his mind? Is that all that is left of your soul mate? It is my dear friend. It is indeed. The time has come once again that you need to stand alone. You need to let go of what you had, be thankful for what you have and have a positive outlook for the future. You can't control anyone sweetheart. You can't control much in this world. All you can do is let go. So mourn what you must, shed the tears you need to, but know they will not be on the shoulder of the friend you're longing to talk to. He no longer exists. You know this. You've done this before. Let go and don't look back.
When he comes into your life again, ignore him. Things will never be the same. When things get hard as they quite often do, stand on your own two feet and deal with it as you have since the day you parted ways. You know how to do this. It's harder each time you fall, it's the getting up, dusting yourself off and remembering who you are that makes you stronger. Get up. Get going. Get on with what you know you need to do. Let go...just let go
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